My shop

As some of you may know now I have taken up the hobby of making jewelry. Its a very slow start but its coming along. You can see what I made or even purchase something at http://www.etsy.com/shop/LynnsOpenCloset?ref=si_shop

If there is something you would particularly like to see for me to make please let me know I will do my best to find and make it for you.

Almost the end of the month

The end of the month is fast approaching and I still have not found a job. I had interviews for Walmart but I don't think I was the right person ( reverse discrimination). I was very highly qualified for the job so I should have been hired. I am so peeved about this I can't see straight and thinking I might call headquarters on this. When I put the application in I was more then flexible with my time and thought the interviews went very well. Oh well. So now I am have interview with Kmart on Monday at 3:00pm. If all goes well maybe I will have a job but I am not getting my hopes up for them to be crushed like they were this time.

As for my eating I am trying my hardest to stay under 1500 calories but its very hard when you are stressed. All I want to do is eat to comfort myself and at the present moment I am craving chocolate cake. Gertie you know thats my weakness. But I will not have it because my husband won't make it which is beneficial. He won't take me to fast food joints either. What I wouldn't do for a double quarter pounder with cheese. Oh well. I continue to drink water and try to stay away from the pepsi but when I do drink one it tastes so very good. I only do it at least once a month.

Let me tell you about all the mail I have been getting because I ordered so much jewelry making stuff. Don't get me wrong I love email but snail mail is so much more personal. I have 5 things up on Etsy now. 2 anklets and 3 bracelets. I am getting there slowly but surely. I have these teardrop beads that I want to make earrings out of. They are so cute.

Feeling Sad

I am waiting to hear from Walmart about whether I got the job or not. In the meantime its driving me crazy all this waiting. It makes me think that I didn't get it. I put an application in to Kmart yesterday and I am hoping they call me for interview soon.

As for my weightloss its not going so good so from going into a deep depression I am not going to weigh myself for about a month or so. If I were to tell you what my weight is now I would totally be embarrassed. That will only make me fell more like a failure. So I will continue to count calories and watch what I am eating and try to get some exercise in but no scale for now. I need a break from numbers. I am even thinking of having my husband do bills this month because my brain cells are fried.

Don';t worry just send a prayer light some candles or incense for me. And hope that I can get back on this bad wagon.

Monday Monday

Well here it is Monday and I am waiting patiently for Aldis to call me for a job interview. You can't call them to do a follow up because they have no phone numbers. Kinda silly if you ask me. But I so really need a job because I am going stir crazy sitting in this house. My husband isn't driving me crazy I actually love being with him except its not just him and me. We don't get much time alone and thats our own fault because I should have gotten a job years ago. Its so hard finding one now because employers are being picky about who they are hiring. More people are applying for the same jobs that I am so how can you sell yourself when nobody calls you for an interview. Spring is coming and alot of places will be hiring for the season but I need a permanent job. But I guess you have to take what you can get nowadays.

I am waiting for so much jewelry stuff to come by mail its sad. I have all kinds of stuff and there is so much I still need. I am itching to do something and I can't keep taking my anxiety medicine because my brother in law loves to atangonize me. I just want to move and be happy with my husband , dog and rabbit.

To hell in a handbasket

This week has not started off very well. I went to Aldis to put an application for cashier; they were all out. Then We went to Lowes to get a switch for the light so I have some proper lightning to do jewelry making but I am waiting on shipments from across the ocean of beads to start making some jewelry. I love buying from overseas because the prices are cheaper then here in the states. Plus you find some very unique items.

As far as my eating it goes down the drain this week. I have had pizza and not just alittle but alot. Next week I will do better because I just will. Had some polenta this morning very good but alot of calories in it. I like putting alittle bit of butter and honey in it; it kinda reminds of cream of wheat. I think I am may do some cleaning and arranging of the desk today because it starts to look over crowded.

Just another Sunday to me

Well everyone is all hyped about today being Super Bowl Sunday. To me its just another day in the life of me. I have been doing pretty good as far as not eating at night but the scale wants to continue to stay where its been the past 3 weeks. I have to figure out how to lose more weight. Its very frustrating when you change something you have been doing most of your life and not show a movement on the scale. But the positive of this weeks weighin is that I didn't gain so YAY for ME!!!!!

Yesterday I got some more beads but I have to go to the store and get some paticulars to make some anklets to sell. The beads I got yesterday are absolutely beautiful and would make great anklets. I am excited about making them. I have to make another anklet for my goddaughter Maddie because hers broke. Hopefully with the new material I have this one will last much longer. My cousin wants a pink one so I have to make hers as well. I am just waiting on some more beads to come in the mail. Some of my beads are coming from The Asian area so there is a long wait for them but its so worth it. If interested in a bracelet or anklets let me know. I will be be posting things in the near furture at Etsy.com. I will even let you know my shop name here in the future.

Tomorrow I am going to a store and putting an application in for cashier. I really need a job so that I can move. I so want my own place to run around in my underwear if I want too. I can't forget to mention I do have an interview on the 24th for home depot. Its so hard nowadays to find a job in this rotten economy.

Not even a whole day

Well my husband got his disability check and its gone by 12:20 pm. I did the usual paid bills and paid bills. We bought food for the animals and of course for ourselves. Its gone not a single cent left to do anything with. I want to start going to church and I might not be able to do that because we have no gas money. My goddaughters birthday is this month and I can't even afford to get her a birthday card and send some money. Will this ever end and when will things change?

I am making jewelry and you have to have money to the supplies to do so. Guess what I won't be doing no shopping for beads and supplies so that ends that idea for a bit.

How to change

Everyone has to change eventually in their lives. Be that you have to move, lose weight, get a job, change a job, or all together find ways to your happiness. I live with my brother in law Scott with my husband. My BIL is very difficult person to live with but I love him. I just don't like him right now. Between me and my husband we cook, clean, and buy groceries for everyone in the household. BIL does nada, zip , zilch, nothing. This is very stressful on my part because I am a woman and we like everything our way. My way is kinda sorta the husbands way too. We like our place to be clean, we like to be clean, etc.....

Its just starting to be to much and with the added stress comes heart problems. I have been having chest pains but they are not a severe chest pain. Its scary because I don't know if I am having a heart attack. Sometimes I am so stressed I get heartburn so that can lead to chest pains. I also have asthma so that causes tight chest symptoms. So what do I do to get rid of the added stress; I complain everyday allday to whomever will listen. Its tiring so now the complaining is stressing me out. I don't want to complain anymore. I want to find a job even though this economy sucks and love it because it will get me the things I need to have a healthier stressless life.

Anyway thats my bitch and grip for the day. Take it or leave it.