Feeling fully positive for the first time in years

I have to say that I feel totally positive that my life is going to be going down a more postive route now. Don't get me wrong there are days that will be total chaos but I am so looking forward to more positive things in my life.I got a job, had my orientation on Saturday, Tuesday and Wednesday I have computerized training then on friday I finally start as overnight stocker in dry foods.The thing about it is I am super excited and super positive things are going to start looking up in my life.

The first thing I am going to do is is purchase head gear for my CPAP machine and save the rest of the money so we can get a car.Getting a car is a major deal for us; it will open opportunities for home searching.This means no stress from living with my brother in law anymore.Can I get a hip hip hooray!!!!I so need my own space and time with my husband.

As for my weightloss I have no clue right now.I have not weighedmyself in a couple of weeks and I am alright with that.This week is TOM so there is no chance of me weighing in.But I don't feel huge and I am doing ok with my eating.Now that I have a job I will be doing more walking and standing on my feet.So thats bound to help with losing the weight.

OVERNIGHTS

Well I am officially an employee of Walmart again.I will be doing overnight stocking this time around.This means I will be sleeping during the day and working at night.This doesn't bother me because its a job and I need it. I am hoping the people there are really nice and hope to make a couple of friends.

This opens avenues for both me and the hubby.First things first save for a car.With having a car it opens opportunity and areas up to move.Yes you heard me right; a couple months down the road you will hear me say that we are moving.This means less stress for me because my brother in law won't be able to antagonize me.YAY!!!!

With having a car I can go back to Maryland and visit my family and friends.Thats just exciting all in itself for me.

TODAY is wonderful

Well I woke up this morning planning on having my husbands and I's picture done but we discussed it alittle more and decided we want an outside picture done. This was figured out after I got all dressed and prettyified. So when May comes along and the weather is just right we are going to go to the metroparks duck pond and have our pictures taken.I will be sure to post it when we get it.
On another good note I weighed myself and i lost here it comes a whopping 6 lbs. This means I am back under 300lbs and going strong.I still have to make changes to my diet but I am so happy I lost that. That means I have a short goal of losing 14 more lbs to be back at where I was before Thanksgiving. I am excited and totally motivated if only the weather would cooperate I would be set.
As for my jewelry making I have sold 3 bracelets and 2 anklets. Its going very slow but I think as we head into the summertime people will buy my anklets more because they will be wearing flipflops and sandals. Honestly nothing looks better with great pair of sandals as a pretty anklet.

last straw

I am freaking done.If i don't move soon I am going to lose it totally.Day after day he sits and antagonizes me left and right. I want to take his cell phone and shove it up his ass so far it comes out of his throat. This was one of the biggest mistakes I have ever made in my life.As soon asI move I am making sure we never have to move in with somebody again. Especially my freaking brother in law. Yesterday the hubby went off on him.Its nice to see i am not the only one losing my freaking mind living here. I can't take it....I am so freaking done!!!

My Baby Boy

As I sit here I wonder where I would be without my baby boy. WHen getting up in early in the morning while everyone is still sound sleep I sit in the living room by myself until I here the creak of the bedroom door opening. Baby boy has decided that its mommy time and comes out looks at me with his chestnut colored eyes as to say good morning mommy how are you feeeling today? He goes to the couch climbs in his spot lays there with his huge eyes planted on me. So for about an hour I have baby boy all to myself and I never feel as calm as I do in the we early morning with baby boy. Baby boy is very spoiled and I have to say I have my hand is some of that.But he is more spoiled by his daddy then he is by me.
There are some days that he doesn't even bother with me but to open the bedroom door as to say look at me and are you alright mommy? I try to get as much time with him as possible because once daddy is around its DADDYTIME!!!
We raised him to be a good boy and there are days he just won't mind. But then you feel bad for scolding him because he is not minding.What I love the most is when he crawls up on the bed with me and comes and lays his head on my leg as to say here I am. Its very soothing at times and very calming when baby boy does this. He likes to play chase and howls on cue. if you haven't figured out who baby boy is by now he is my dog bullet. I love him so and would love to have a big house with a big yard for him but finacially thats not possible at this time. So he goes alittle stir crazy and chases his tail and gets in the puppy bow. There are times he makes me laugh and then there are times he drives me absolutely bonkers but I wouldn't have it any other way.I can't go to sleep at night unless daddy is playing with making him bark. His bark at times can be annoying but most of the time especially at bedtime its very calming. lol
Again as I said in the beginning I don't know what I would do with out my baby boy.

1st day of Spring

Let me just tell you I am absolutely positively escatic that its spring. I even went outside and trimmed my lavendar bush in the warm sunshine. Then I sat with my neighbor for awhile and we talked about what she has been doing and what i have been doing.Its so nice to be out of hibernation.I can't wait to start walking and possibly finding a job.
To top off this glorious day I sold one of my bracelets today. YAY!!!!
As for my eating I am doing pretty well but I am not going to weigh myself till sunday.

Stupid Spermdonor

Today is a beautiful day and we took the dog out to the doggy park so he could run and play with other dogs. It was great till i get a friend request on my phone from my spermdonor biological father. now mind this over a year ago i try to stay in contact and they stopped all of the sudden. making me feel like dirt and worthless shit. I am not going through that again. I don't care if he is sick i just don't care none of that side of my family has ever given a rats ass about me so why should i.